I was thinking today, that having cancer is a lot like being a Christian in some ways. I have this deadly thing, growing inside of me, however, as of now, I feel super healthy. It is isolated. I could choose to not have chemotherapy because I feel just fine. I could continue ignoring the fact that I have this disease, and live as long as I can until it starts growing and kills me. Which sounds like a pretty good plan considering the fact that chemo will leave me bald, vulnerable, have a low immune system, etc. Plus, I am completely ignorant about the whole process. And besides, who has time to be ignorant, hurt, sick, or vulnerable?
I can choose to stay in that spot of ignorance, because that is where it feels safe..It feels good to pretend like everything’s okay. It feels good to not acknowledge my problem. But there is only so long I can do that.
This reminds me of having sin in my life. A lot of times, I feel perfectly fine, although my body and soul can become plagued with sin. For a moment, that sin is isolated. No one has to know about it, until it starts growing out of control and one day kills me.
For the longest time, I didn’t want to choose to be a Christian, because I knew that it is a long, humbling, journey that often leads to being hurt, scared, and lonely. Plus, I was completely ignorant about becoming a Christian and what it meant to walk in the light. I didn’t like the idea of asking for help or being exposed to my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ..But instead of remaining in that safe place, I prayed for guidance, I jumped out in faith, repented, was baptized, continued to immerse myself in Gods world, and ive been doing my best to walk in that light ever since.I found the true meaning of those beautiful words “You will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.” John 8:32
It is amazing the lessons and fruit that can be gained from just the beginning of certain life experiences when the experience is filtered with trust in God. If you are ignoring something in your life, please stop. Give it to God.. Give it to a brother or sister in Christ who will help you give it to God..Whatever it is, acknowledge it, acknowledge that you cannot conquer it alone, and then look around to see who God has blessed you with to help you through it. It is the best feeling in the world.
If you need help, as always, I am here. I love you.
Romans 6:4 “What shall we say then? Are we to continue in sin that grace may abound? By no means! How can we who died to sin still live in it? Do you not know that all of us who have been baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life.
For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we shall certainly be united with him in a resurrection like his.”