When I was 12 years old, I was graciously adopted by my mother’s new husband, the man I now call my father. I was given a new last name, but I was struggling internally. I was struggling with my identity. No matter how much love my parents showed me, I still felt unloved. You see,... Continue Reading →

Lots of people can be really negative about Facebook sometimes but honestly, I have met some incredible people by being open and honest with my Christian journey and intentional about creating relationships. Yesterday we met up with Jim Thayer. Norma Sue Lott connected us once online when I was doing a project for school! He happens to live... Continue Reading →

I’m thankful for a God who shared such vulnerable stories of the people following Him in the Bible. I am thankful that the Bible does not spin the flaws and weaknesses of its heroes. I am thankful that God shared the story of Moses failing...and Peter rebuking God... and Jonah being a coward... and Jacob... Continue Reading →

Yesterday the women in our congregation had a painting class together and as I was working on my painting I got my brush too wet and a drip of water slid down my painting, seemingly ruining it. I asked what I should do and the class instructor Sonya looked at it and said, “well you... Continue Reading →

When I think about past events that have left a dent in my life, sometimes it is easy to still become bitter and start picking up imaginary bricks to hand build my crumbled walls into tall, sturdy thick walls. Bitterness creeps in and begins to turn into numbness and it becomes tempting to turn into... Continue Reading →

Scars are Proof that God Heals

We all have scars. Some are physical, some may be emotional. I bear a new scar on my right chest where my port is placed for chemo treatments. When I look at this scar I view it as a representation of my ability to overcome the cancer that tried to hurt me. I will never... Continue Reading →

The Old Testament is filled with beautiful lessons that I have a tendency to forget about. Today’s blog is inspired by Leprosy. I know Leprosy seems like an odd thing to become inspired about, but bear with me. If you have a Bible with you, my writing will be based on 2 Kings 5 where... Continue Reading →

I’ve never really thought of myself as vain. I have my moments, just like any woman. But vain? Me? Nah. However, I often pray for my bad qualities to be revealed in my life and Even though this is just the beginning of this journey with cancer and the beginning of my marriage , I... Continue Reading →

I was thinking today, that having cancer is a lot like being a Christian in some ways. I have this deadly thing, growing inside of me, however, as of now, I feel super healthy. It is isolated. I could choose to not have chemotherapy because I feel just fine. I could continue ignoring the fact... Continue Reading →

I don’t know about you, but sometimes I have an “I” problem. “I need that, I am so stressed, I didn’t deserve that, I am not good at that, I am so depressed, I have it worse than him/her, I want that.” One question I have been thinking about is, what is the middle letter... Continue Reading →

“you’ll understand when you’re older.” People have said this to me multiple times, I always take it with a grain of salt because I know they mean well. But I just don’t agree.. I believe experience is life’s greatest teacher, and yes perhaps more experience comes with age, but not every time. Age does not... Continue Reading →

In bible class with the children we are in 1 Samuel. Today we covered idol worship. We went over Dagon, which as we know, is a half man half fish idol for the Philistines. As Kelsey was going over this, she looked to the class and said “Do you guys have any idols? Anything you... Continue Reading →

I have come to the conclusion that we are a lot like the Israelites. When things are going good, we have a tendency to rely on ourselves and give ourselves the glory. Often it isnt until we are in our lowest moments, that we turn to God. Today, I found myself writing and reflecting on a few lessons I have learned from Gideon..This writing will be based on Judges 6-8 =) To catch you up to the context of where I am, the people of Israel did again what was evil in the sight of the Lord (Big Surprise, not). So the Lord gave them into the hand of Midian. The Midianites were so overpowering to the people of Israel, they made themselves dens and cavs in the mountains. In this text, the Midianites are devouring the food of the land and leaving nothing in Israel..Could you imagine? Scripture says, Israel was brought very low because of this (vs 6). So like many of us in our lowest times, they cried to the Lord. And the Lord (as always) provides. He sends them a prophet. In chapter 6 of Judges we meet Gideon. The angel of the Lord appears to him and says, “The Lord is with you, O mighty man of valor.” Gideon’s response: “please sir, if the Lord is with us, why then has all this happened to us? And where are all his wonderful deeds that our fathers recounted to us, saying, Did not the Lord bring us up from Egypt? But now the Lord has forsake us and given us into the hand of Midian.” Have you ever felt like a modern day Gideon? Wondering… “If the Lord is with me, why has this happened to me?” I have.. and here are here are 4 lessons I have learned from Gideon: 1. We often blame our suffering on God. Gideon says to the angel of the Lord, “if the Lord is with us, why then has all this happened to us?”

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